sometime i feel i failed!

astaghfirullah..astaghfirullah,astaghfirullah..

masya ALLAH,masya ALLAH , masya ALLAH..

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

assalamua'alaikum warahmatullahi wabarokatuh...
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ya ALLAH , aku rasa aku telah gagal!
gagal menjadi seorang pelajar,
gagal menjadi anak,
gagal menjalankan amanah yang diberi,
gagal menjadi seorang daie,
dan....
gagal dalam menjadi hamba ALLAH

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that's my feeling, and that's the truth.
people seem to only know the successful me,
the positive side of me.
not many saw my failing part.

if ALLAH wills it, to people around me to see how many sins i've comitted,
i would be in deep shame.

but ALLAH is soo good to me. he never show my failed part.
alhamdulillah...

someone,may say,
hey, you are so hipocrite! dont want to show your true nature to us!

let me be hipocrite.
let me hide the hideous part of me.

may ALLAH give me the strength to change for better,
to let the hideous part be the past, so that i wont repeat it again.



alhmdulillah, thank you ALLAH 4 all the mercy you have given to us.
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p/s: i wonder if any of my fb friends, who are not my relative know who i am about 12 years ago.